A Tingle in my Soul

I don't really have anything much to say. I am bored. The problem with being ill is you just don't feel like doing stuff.

The antihistamines have been doing there thing well and my rash has few raised bumps now and is a lot less angry looking. It is a little tingly is all. I just feel very, very tired. I have already slept most of today...

I made my first magic fairy wool creature earlier on. An orange rabbit. It all looks so simple when she does it but twisting and knotting the wool requires some finesse. Maybe today is not the day....

So what do i do? Not sure today is the day for reading the non-fiction I am currently finding enthralling.... The rich vein I am following right now seems to be all to do with the 'reality' of the world around us and the power of the mind. Two things that go very much together it seems. From Supernatural to Incognito and then I have the Occult and the Field waiting, and just from flicking through them I can see the continuation of this train of thought.

Supernatural took archaeology and drugs and folklore and showed evidence that the world we live in has others right nect to it and that some people are very adept at seeing into it, and others need drugs to help them. This world is a strange one... Incognito is looking at the mind and the strangeness of how it works. How we dream our way through life with our dreams anchored by our senses. Our brain uses limited information and makes up the rest. We really do not all see the same world. Some see more colours (some women see more than others with up to ten colours in the rainbow), some people see with their tongues (the brain can learn to convert any information feed in to 'sight' and a device on the tongue has helped a blind climber to climb) and many more strangenesses. I have much more to read.

I am very much believing in serendipity at the mo. Everything was going great. So I have to believe that there is a reason for my current illness, even if I do not know what. This herpes virus has been living in my body ever since I had chickenpox as a kid, waiting for it's moment. Maybe this is my body kicking it out for good? Maybe it isn't about my immune system being weak, because I don't feel weak right now in general... Who knows.

But things are on the move in my life and I have trust. even in the bad stuff.

I am grateful that I don't appear to be overly ill. That my rash does not really hurt much and paracetomol are doing the trick. I am grateful I have no blisters. I am grateful that beyond being rather tired, I don't seem to have many side effects.... Whether this is shingles or not, it could have been a lot more unpleasant!

I am grateful for unexpected gifts, just when you need them, that are just what you needed.

Yay! For a great day. For people who give generously of themselves and have so many talents and interests.... People who followed their hearts and bacame experts! Love em!

Today I am grateful for friends and other generous people who may become friends.... There are so many kind souls out there who give of their time and thought to help us progress in the world. I am lucky.

Today I am grateful that I have a car. That I don't get out of the house really early to get a bus. That I don't have to walk all the way to work as people used to, and many of them walked a lot further than I have to go! And they looked after their small holdings and tended their houses far better than I do.... I am grateful I can offer lifts to those without a car. I am glad my car is small and cheap to run but just big enough to act as a family car and hold us and our luggage (just) if we go anywhere. I am glad F is selling his car. I am glad he has a motorbike and a push bike now. I think this is a good decision. Why did we really need two cars? I am grateful we have so much.

I am grateful for the trust of animals. I love my Little Dog and how she trusts us and has faith in us. How we can do anything to her (as long as she is awake) and she believes, until the moment we hurt her that we won't and that we won't do it again. Accidentally trodden on tails and paws are forgotten in the blink of an eye. If she is asleep she is rather more grumpy about things however! If we have to trim her claws she doesn't growl or bite, although she does try and remove her paws from our grip and sneak away.... I am also grateful that wild animals sometimes learn to trust us, give us a glimpse of their lives close to....

I am grateful that change always comes when it is needed, whether or not we chose to see it that way or not.

Today I am extremely grateful that F had a day off. I was able to come home and find the last few bits of the wardrobes finished off, the last little bit of floor varnished and that mound of cardboard from the flatpack recycled. I am not sure you have any idea how good that felt after the last 11 days of toil..... I know I am going to wake up and just stare around at it all.... lots....

Today I am grateful that everything eventually comes to an end! One quarter of my bedroom floor requires it's final coat of varnish and then it is finished! yay! *does happy dance* and I can then go eat the lovely bar of M & S fudge I have been saving as a finishing treat! Today we get to play with the wardrobes! *does an even wilder happy dance*